So here's the deal. It's a Friday night.... and I want to go out... for dinner. Typically I wouldn't dream of going out to dinner on a Friday night without a companion. I would sit at home and sulk if I wanted to go out and had no one available to go, and then come Sunday mourn a weekend lost.
Friday nights my daughter goes and spends the night with her Dad. And I have a night to myself. Typically I'd go to a movie - cause you don't raise any eyebrows going to a movie solo. But dinner - it's more obvious.
Did she get stood up?
Is she waiting for the rest of her party to arrive?
I did the nearly unthinkable (for me) thing. I called a local, respectable, middle of the road restaurant downtown and made a reservation.... for "one".
The voice on the other line paused only momentarily, and then quickly recovered and said "No problem, 8:30, party of one, we look forward to having you. If you want to come a little early, say 8:15, you could have a seat at the bar while you wait".
Uh - don't think I'm ready for the seat at the bar... just yet. I'm a solo dining virgin. But I am determined to do this. I've combed my hair, fixed my make-up, applied fresh lipstick. Nothing special but at least the bare minimum effort I'd make if I was going with someone else.
I am trying to bolster my courage and self esteem to not miss out on things I want to do - or be dependant on someone else for my good time. I will take a folder with some things in it - in case I feel a little awkward, make some notes perhaps about my impending move, review my resume etc. All things I'd never do on a real date. But hey - I'm going out with "me". I'm fun, amusing, and a good companion... to everyone but myself. This is an area where I need to increase my comfort level....
I'm starting tonight
Wish me luck. Life as a Single Parent,,,, table for "one"
Friday, February 23, 2007
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Crazy Horoscopes!
Overview:
A fiery side of your nature emerges, especially when you see social injustice or another kind of unfair treatment being meted out. You've got what it takes to rectify this situation, so get to it.
Daily Extended Forecast
When you feel a jolt of social electricity hit you today, follow the current to the source (it may be a surprising one). You're starting to see someone in a whole new light, and this person is very likely starting to see you in a new light as well. This is the start of a phase of reinvention in your life -- the time is right for making changes. Release yourself from senseless self-imposed restrictions or rules. Do what feels right.
(Just hope whatever it is doesn't cause me to get arrested....lol)
A fiery side of your nature emerges, especially when you see social injustice or another kind of unfair treatment being meted out. You've got what it takes to rectify this situation, so get to it.
Daily Extended Forecast
When you feel a jolt of social electricity hit you today, follow the current to the source (it may be a surprising one). You're starting to see someone in a whole new light, and this person is very likely starting to see you in a new light as well. This is the start of a phase of reinvention in your life -- the time is right for making changes. Release yourself from senseless self-imposed restrictions or rules. Do what feels right.
(Just hope whatever it is doesn't cause me to get arrested....lol)
Thursday, February 15, 2007
15 Principles to Creating What You Want
1. Never compromise your integrity for anyone or anything.
2. Don't try to be all things to all people. Learn to say no politely and pleasantly , but immediately and firmly.
3. Never wait for something to happen; make it happen! Do it now!
4. Do not be overwhelmed by the tasks before you. Don't try to do everything; just do something.
5. To accomplish your objective, first begin. Secondly, concentrate exclusively on the project at hand. Third, don't stop.
6. Let circumstances dictate your priorities; let priorities determine your actions.
7. Focus your efforts on the root of the problem. Don't expend energy on peripheral issues that are not crucial to producing results.
8. For maximum effectiveness, do only what you do best and let others do the rest.
9. Concentrate on long-term, permanent solutions rather than stop gap measures.
10. Don't waste time telling people what you are doing or what you are going to do. Results have a way of informing the world.
11. Don't make promises you can't keep; once made, keep them.
12. Don't be tempted to take the easy way out. Have the self-discipline to do the right thing rather than the instinctive thing.
13. Don't become lax; play every point as though it were matching point.
14. You are not through until you have dotted all the I's and crossed all the T's.
2. Don't try to be all things to all people. Learn to say no politely and pleasantly , but immediately and firmly.
3. Never wait for something to happen; make it happen! Do it now!
4. Do not be overwhelmed by the tasks before you. Don't try to do everything; just do something.
5. To accomplish your objective, first begin. Secondly, concentrate exclusively on the project at hand. Third, don't stop.
6. Let circumstances dictate your priorities; let priorities determine your actions.
7. Focus your efforts on the root of the problem. Don't expend energy on peripheral issues that are not crucial to producing results.
8. For maximum effectiveness, do only what you do best and let others do the rest.
9. Concentrate on long-term, permanent solutions rather than stop gap measures.
10. Don't waste time telling people what you are doing or what you are going to do. Results have a way of informing the world.
11. Don't make promises you can't keep; once made, keep them.
12. Don't be tempted to take the easy way out. Have the self-discipline to do the right thing rather than the instinctive thing.
13. Don't become lax; play every point as though it were matching point.
14. You are not through until you have dotted all the I's and crossed all the T's.
15. Avoid premature celebrations. You are not through till the check has cleared the bank.
Somedays....
Do you ever have those days, or maybe a fleeting moment... when in your head you imagine your life like it was part of a movie..... where there are various images of yourself (thinking, doing or whatever) with some great song playing....
Ok - so for 30 seconds... here's mine (just for the moment) I am walking on this deserted beach at twilight of a very warm but breezy day, alone with my thoughts... wearing something summery and flowy and the following song is playing... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pHeI68KFGm0
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
It's not warm when she's away
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
And she always gone too long anytime she goes away
Wonder this time where she's gone
Wonder if she's gone to stay
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
And this house just ain't no home
Anytime she goes away
And I know, I know, I know, I know
I know, I know, I know, I know
I know, I know, I know, I know
I know, I know, I know, I know
I know, I know, I know, I know
I know, I know, I know, I know
I know, I know
Hey I'll leave the young thing alone
But ain't no sunshine when she's gone
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
Only darkness everyday
Ain't no sunshine when she's gone
And this house just ain't no home
Anytime she goes away
Anytime she goes away
Anytime she goes away
Anytime she goes away
It's totally random, I know... but it's all mine!
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Happy Valentine's Day
So nothing like spending two nights painstakingly making beautiful Valentine's Day cookies for your daughter to take to school to share with all of her friends for their Valentine's Day party.... only to have this happen
For Feb 14, 2007- All schools and administrative centres are closed in the Region of Halton.
Whoo-hoo - Snow Day!!!! (Party on Wayne....)
Friday, February 02, 2007
That time of Year....
February - well I guess now that Christmas and New Years are out of the way - the commercial world will start flogging us with thoughts of love and romance, hearts and candy...
I am not a complete skeptic however... I did see these adorable cookies in the local bakery window - and even the squirrels seem a little..... frisky.
Thursday, February 01, 2007
Unwritten
"Unwritten" - Natasha Bedingfield
I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
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